sry.

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Tuesday, October 11, 2005

my mind has a problem. my head i mean. it's spinning and i can feel these things swirling inside. i feel sick. i can feel this swirling. like swirling water. it's in my head. it's spinning and i feel like i've just drowned. i think i'm going to fail my exams. i don't belong here. i feel so trapped and i want to run back and i want to run away and now i'm thinking about it and now i feel like crying cause i know the end is near cos i see the signs and i feel so empty and lack of things that i don' t know. i just don't know. and i don't feel like finding out but i need to know. but then again i know that i am not alone.

i just wanna scream. i want to run away from here and find a damn big field and just
SCREEEEAAAAAAAAAAAMMMMM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and then i'll throw myself back on the green, green, fresh, sweet grass and look up into the sky and close my eyes.
and maybe die a nice death.
but maybe i'd rather not die there. not then.

i'm so clueless. AND i hate EOYs.

That's all there is. (:
5:07 AM

packed and left.

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