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yay i like pepperoni pizza. That's all there is. (:
That's all there is. (:
That's all there is. (:
That's all there is. (:
okayy. so i was really pooped out by the time i reached home. yeah. so i lay on my bed to rest & read a book i borrowed. yeah. then chinny asked me if i were going for the bbq, which i really wanted to. but i was friggin tired. soo.. i had to wait for my dad to cm home & i was thinking abt all the ppl & the fun i was missing.. :\ screw. well.. so i had to go since chinny was like beggin and all (((: hohoho. yeah darnit man. i really wasnt in the mood to go unless a private jet plane was going to pick me up, then that would be totally cool so i'd go and show off my pimpy ride. which i'm crapping about. so anywayy. i went. and we sat around. the beach was beautiful at night. even though it was well... like all the other beaches in singapore.. MOSTLY artificial. but heck. it was nice. so there were smoochy couples appreciating the niceness of it all. anyway!!! there were soo many nice nice familiar people so i sorta hyperventilated. ok i'm exaggerating. but yeah i was excited lah kay. so then we basically wasted ice. and i had swoops of ice running down my back. wasnt really threatening and all when smone was going to throw ice down your shirt unless it was the humongolishous one andra was holding. then we played what ah.. truth or dare is it? i think so. i didnt get dared and didnt intend to. so phew. but whatever. they were nice although most of the time they were talking in chinese. :\ heh. well i was kinda used to them not bothering. lol. ohwell. so we played an extremely unappealing game called vampire & i died two/three times i think. i think twice. & lihan tapped my back twice and i didnt feel it. what an ass i am. i came to realise that an ipod is a very sexy object. ohhmygosh, zen neeon!!!!! darn. my dad just got his three new sport bikes stolen and i'm pissed cos mine's gone too. oh fook you, swiping-buggers!!!! so now i feel guilty abt asking him for a zen neeon. unlike SOME lucky ipod owning people... (: oh and i think that ernest & adriel are really polite and noble-ish interesting young men. xD reallayy! omygoodness i'm a fan. (: they say interesting things. adriel says monotonous idungiveadamn things that are pretty hilarious. and ernest is just so ernest. yeah like wow. and i notice they think about others. hoho. keep it up! and so i'm too lazy to blog anymore. last words: i really regret paying wenxin 9 bucks for two twisties-oh and a satay. i mean, i actually dragged myself to come and i came late, missing most of the bbq but ohwell. and lihan actually paid 5. money doesnt come that easy ynoe. i mean, i cldnt like refuse to pay.. but at least let me off lahh.. my dad was even pissed at me for being irresponsible cos he went all the way to carpark D & we decided that carpark B was near downtown and that was the carpark stated in the sms. so we went all the way back and i called jiayi and she said it was carpark D so my dad had to go all the way back to carpark D which was quite far away. he was pissed off. :\ i felt so guilty!! he said his petrol was wasted. oh dear. this makes me feel like forgetting about zen neeon too. note to jiayi: THANKS FOR THE RIDE HOME! (: That's all there is. (:
That's all there is. (:
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That's all there is. (:
6:10 AM
- practise self-control in terms of
. resisting saying weird things in front of unfamiliar people
. eating too much junk (oh this is a tough one.)
. sleeping/ daydreaming/ doodling/ yawning largely in class. (ohh this is hard too.)
. staying on the comp for too long and ignoring homework
(this self control thing is gonna be really long so i think i'll stop right here.)
- dont give members of the PB an effing CHANCE at trying to book me. My name cant always be written by just anybody in a little notebook.. it has to be treated sensitively.
and thus leads to;
. re-check that my phone is OFF in the car..
. keeping belt not so low-sy.
. keeping my socks acceptably um, acceptable. well my socks seem to have grown longer in the wash and now are really stretchy. :\
. wake UP. and get OFF to school early. earlier on rainy days.
- write down ALL of my homework, with due dates. (and DONT ignore the list afterwards, at home!!!)
- be OPTIMISTIC. like, oh yay 205. WHOOWHEE!! how TOTALLY FANTABULOUSLY WONDERFUL!!! yay yay yay i LOVE YOU ALL!!! YAY!!! what with reshuffling, i totally get to make new friends and all my friends wont miss me cos they'll move on, right? OHH, it's all NOTHING..i mean, they've all got each other and i'll just CLICK onto sm CLIQUE just like that. click. it's all easypeasy. OMG, it's all gonna ROCK. yayyyy!!!! i really DONT CARE!!
- be HONEST. honestly.. this totally makes my expression above invalid? ohwell. i'm still sticking to optimism but um, not sacarsm much. although im always lamely sarcastic? ): dammit. that's smthing to avoid i guess. heheee.
- dun spend too much!
(ah, im tired. if you wanna know further info. -of COURSE you doo..- you can go read my mind sm day or other.)
oh no. lame sarcasm.
5:46 AM
Dx
notice how i said "oh dear" and not "OH WOW!" or "OHMYGOSH!" or "HURRAY"/"YIPPEE!"/"WHOOOOOOOOH!!!"
yeah. that gotta explain SMTHING.
i mean. oh gawsh. secondary TWO life in RGS??? like OH MY GOSH. hey i said ohmygosh after all. but it's a negative ohmysgosh, not the ohmygoshohmygosh kinda ohmygosh. :\ ynoe?
sighhh. i am not really hyped about this 'New Year' thingy. really.
5:41 AM
aqilah. says:
i dont want to reshuffle shuffle at alllllllllllllllllllllllllll
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
zaf said we can just sit there and dont move or listen to teachres
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
teachers*
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
haha
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
then smua orang buat gitu
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
yeayea
aqilah. says:
then we will get longg lectures frm the principals
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
yeah..
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
zaf said
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
we all dun listen
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
then they throw us outta school
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
then rgs dun have any sec ones
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
UAHAHAHAHA
aqilah. says:
no tehy wont
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
eh
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
sec twos
aqilah. says:
they*
aqilah. says:
cos not everyone'll agree
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
yeahh
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
well
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
it's just
aqilah. says:
like the jeepers are not overly unhappy of this reshufflng shit
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
arhh
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
yeah
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
but they aree
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
sharon's FURIOUS
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
haha
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
so cute
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
they reshuffle them also what...
aqilah. says:
not all of them are
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
oh well..
aqilah. says:
cos some dont really like their classes
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
yeah well
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
aqilah. says:
i nak go on strike
aqilah. says:
we all buat satu circle run the school
aqilah. says:
then we chant stuff
aqilah. says:
then we go in circles and hold placards
aqilah. says:
okaYY?
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
haha
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
well..
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
we could all land in detention
aqilah. says:
and we can do it again and again
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
OOH
aqilah. says:
till dorang penat detentioning us
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
fun
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
hah
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
yeayy
aqilah. says:
and if that doesnt work, we can always glue our butts to each otherr...
aqilah. says:
tapi kalau dorang suruh kita semua bukak pinafore jadi tak melekat... eeh.
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHAHAHA
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
ee
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
but they WONT, see
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
cos that would be horrid
aqilah. says:
yah
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
and we would tell our parents
aqilah. says:
then masuk akhbar
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
oh
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
but my dad supports it
aqilah. says:
then nama rgs rosak
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
ts
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
YAY
aqilah. says:
ROSAK
aqilah. says:
ROSAK
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
that wud be GREEEEEAAAAAAAAT
aqilah. says:
MWAHAHAHAAAAA
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
HAAAAAAAAHAHAHHHHHHHHHHHHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
BUT
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
TSKK
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
so mean ah
aqilah. says:
nanti
aqilah. says:
dorang buat article
aqilah. says:
'teh people behind this controversy'
aqilah. says:
nanti maluuuuuu
aqilah. says:
ee
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
haha
aqilah. says:
tak mau lahh
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
nvm lah
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
they take our pictures we cover with our pinafore belt
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
cover our faces
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
alah
aqilah. says:
HAHHAHAAAAAAAA
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
but still can see ah
aqilah. says:
mcm mummy eh?
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
COOL
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
lol
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
i'm really L-O-Ling
aqilah. says:
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
lingol
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
COOL
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
laughing out loud
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
laughoutlouding
aqilah. says:
ing
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
LingOL
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
lingol
aqilah. says:
ledol?
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
LEDOL
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
laughed out loud
aqilah. says:
eh how did this start from going on strike?
aqilah. says:
:
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
HAHA
aqilah. says:
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
HAHAHA
aqilah. says:
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
how much we digress
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
about our strike..
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
yea we could like burn our pinafores
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
eh
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
teruk nya
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
nanti panggil police
aqilah. says:
burn them when we're wearing them ke apa?
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
no
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
that's suicide
aqilah. says:
then if we kepanasan we kan golek on teh floor
aqilah. says:
the*
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
HAHA
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
LINL
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
really
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
eeyur
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
nanti admin ketawakan kita
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
ahh
aqilah. says:
YAA
aqilah. says:
eh ah ah eh.
we can chant that. sangat tribal
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
lingollingollingol
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
golling
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
golling
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
lol
aqilah. says:
(: (: (:
aqilah. says:
we can not dengar ckp tchers and make the school our playground
aqilah. says:
run all over the school
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
coooool
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
we can panjat things like at esplanade
aqilah. says:
eat from the display things at teh stalls
aqilah. says:
YA
aqilah. says:
and gayut like monyets
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
yah
aqilah. says:
banyak pole kat rg kan?
aqilah. says:
(:
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
and we can chase squirrels
aqilah. says:
bounce on the mattresses
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
and SLIDE DOWN STARICASE PUNYA THINGERS
aqilah. says:
at the gym
aqilah. says:
YAA
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
like with the payung
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
cool
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
we can raise our own flag
aqilah. says:
lompat into the tiny pond dekat pavilion
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
HO HO
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
yah
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
oh
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
a bit gross
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
mouldy
aqilah. says:
eeh
aqilah. says:
anw i gtg now
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
oh ok
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
hehe
aqilah. says:
byebye
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
byee
aqilah. says:
shall copy this convoo
diyanah* ooooh. the NEW people. ((: says:
what a meaningful discussion we had
1:21 AM
i really dun mind being in 205. really. yeah even if aqilah & abu AND nard are in 208. oh yeah. and farizan... oh and val's in 202.
i dun mind..
okay i do mind a little but i dun get to choose the rest of it anyway.
do i get to choose my height? NO.
my hair/skin colour? NO.
my race? NO.
my gender.. NO.
my underweightness.. NO.
my lameness? NO.
my weaknesses? NO.
no, no no no. no, no no no, dun get to chooose..
aww. i dun feel lyk gg for cca orientation. haha. but i'm a ccao personn.. ): hope zaf comes. zaf, are you coming??
DEBBIE, you better come or i'll slaughter u and feed u to the poor.
ew, poor poor.
11:19 PM
i haaaaaaaaaaaaaaate this.
should i drop out??
i think i should change my identity in 205 next year.
i should be like, class nerd or depressed goth or smthing.
asdasdbyagkuywiywloiowyf09872be9730e8
7p2087frhuhfiuwehyfuhwiuheuh!!!!
noo lah. i'm not pissed. ):
5:59 AM
i hate.
waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahahahahahhahahaaa...
102 no more.
i'm in 205. i had this feeling i'd be there. sigh. register no. 25 and all. ynoe. 2. and fiive.
i think i'm going nuts right now.
i dun want ppl to know me unless they wanna noe me well enough. :\ which i'm not sure i'm ready forr.
i hope my class aint filled with ppl who care soo much about appearance. or if they do i hope they wouldnt. not next year.
oh dear. this is such a bad start for a new year.
smtimes things that ppl can say makes me dun wanna know ppl. did i just say that before? ohwell.. 205..
Nurdiyanah, 205. kinda has a ring to it.
but i dont want them to know me. i should be a LONER.
i dun want them to know me and pick out the worst of me or smthing like that. i want ppl who know me as me. i mean. i've got so many "errors" that people seem to see and judge me on. exterior based stuff, ynoe? i think i'm not an open person that much anyway.
well, whatever.
i'm skinny and a little on the hairy side.
i'm loud but so soft-spoken when i meet someone new.
i'm too tall. i'm too damn bloody sticky, you say. i'm too weak he said. i agreed.
i AM weak and i'm born that way. while others are atheletic. is this unfairness? yes. no.
Allah made me this way. but still.
i'm so lame. i'm such a loser.
oh yeah. on top of that, i'm struggling in school too. not that smart either, are you, diy?
people say everything. the sad thing is, i almost always believe them. that's bad, right?
i can hardly make decisions. i dunno who to talk to at the right time, when i really need help. who are you talking to now? i see what you mean. oh and i'm so darn lazy. what am i gonna do about it? i dunno. i'll work harder i guess. really? i think so. i'll try. whatever it is, whatever they say..
(: i'll work it through 2006.
5:05 AM
YAY
aqilah i wana be Good. gooood. says:
2088
diyanah* (: possibly impossible says:
AQILAH
diyanah* (: possibly impossible says:
i cant get it
diyanah* (: possibly impossible says:
in*
aqilah i wana be Good. gooood. says:
rightt
aqilah i wana be Good. gooood. says:
erm where'd you get stuck?
diyanah* (: possibly impossible says:
205
diyanah* (: possibly impossible says:
i'm in 205
diyanah* (: possibly impossible says:
awww
diyanah* (: possibly impossible says:
aqilah i wana be Good. gooood. says:
whaaaahaaahaaaa
aqilah i wana be Good. gooood. says:
same class as sheils and syah
diyanah* (: possibly impossible says:
uhhuh
aqilah i wana be Good. gooood. says:
fionaa's wrongg
aqilah i wana be Good. gooood. says:
tapi i think we'll get melayu classmates
aqilah i wana be Good. gooood. says:
right?
diyanah* (: possibly impossible says:
yeah
diyanah* (: possibly impossible says:
i think
aqilah i wana be Good. gooood. says:
what abt amiii and naddd and vall and everyone elsee?
diyanah* (: possibly impossible says:
YA
diyanah* (: possibly impossible says:
my heart
diyanah* (: possibly impossible says:
it's leaping
diyanah* (: possibly impossible says:
with confusion
aqilah i wana be Good. gooood. says:
DIY
diyanah* (: possibly impossible says:
aaaaaaaaaaaaa
aqilah i wana be Good. gooood. says:
hello
aqilah i wana be Good. gooood. says:
nad says ' ya i noe ur in my class 208 nxt yr along with abu diy soff n roy
aqilah i wana be Good. gooood. says:
are you sureee you're in 205??????
diyanah* (: possibly impossible says:
diyanah* (: possibly impossible says:
diyanah* (: possibly impossible says:
yah
aqilah i wana be Good. gooood. says:
then then thennnnnnnn
aqilah i wana be Good. gooood. says:
i want to check i want to see my class matess
diyanah* (: possibly impossible says:
waiiit
diyanah* (: possibly impossible says:
dun leave me in suspense
diyanah* (: possibly impossible says:
um
diyanah* (: possibly impossible says:
gimme rgs inet url again pls.
diyanah* (: possibly impossible says:
aqilah i wana be Good. gooood. says:
http://www.rgs.edu.sg/2006classes/
diyanah* (: possibly impossible says:
oh yeah
diyanah* (: possibly impossible says:
but cannot check others kan
aqilah i wana be Good. gooood. says:
ntahh. i nak tapi guiltyy nanti
aqilah i wana be Good. gooood. says:
dorcas dpt 2o2 tauu. style ehh?
diyanah* (: possibly impossible says:
yeahhh
diyanah* (: possibly impossible says:
mep
aqilah i wana be Good. gooood. says:
oh. right
aqilah i wana be Good. gooood. says:
aqilah i wana be Good. gooood. says:
VAL
aqilah i wana be Good. gooood. says:
VAL VAL VAL VALLLLL
diyanah* (: possibly impossible says:
you're with abu
aqilah i wana be Good. gooood. says:
noooooooo
aqilah i wana be Good. gooood. says:
you?
aqilah i wana be Good. gooood. says:
you?
diyanah* (: possibly impossible says:
i wanna rip my butt offf
aqilah i wana be Good. gooood. says:
you?
aqilah i wana be Good. gooood. says:
you?
aqilah i wana be Good. gooood. says:
you?
aqilah i wana be Good. gooood. says:
are you absolutely sure you're 2o5ing nxt yr?
aqilah i wana be Good. gooood. says:
telll meeeeeee
aqilah i wana be Good. gooood. says:
i need to knowwwwww
diyanah* i... am... SPEECHLESS says:
yes
diyanah* i... am... SPEECHLESS says:
i A
diyanah* i... am... SPEECHLESS says:
i checked
diyanah* i... am... SPEECHLESS says:
aqilahhh
diyanah* i... am... SPEECHLESS says:
i feel sadder than psle time
aqilah i wana be Good. gooood. says:
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
aqilah i wana be Good. gooood. says:
then what abt nad and fiona and all
aqilah i wana be Good. gooood. says:
-faints-
diyanah* i... am... SPEECHLESS says:
"
diyanah* i... am... SPEECHLESS says:
syahidah
sheil[a] 205:/ says:
atiqa
sheil[a] 205:/ says:
irmelia
sheil[a] 205:/ says:
liyana
sheil[a] 205:/ says:
me
sheil[a] 205:/ says:
afiqah
sheil[a] 205:/ says:
liza
diyanah* i... am... SPEECHLESS says:
are in my class
diyanah* i... am... SPEECHLESS says:
but i dun care
diyanah* i... am... SPEECHLESS says:
I WANT YOU AND YOUR BEAUTIFUL SOUUUULL
aqilah i wana be Good. gooood. says:
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH
diyanah* i... am... SPEECHLESS says:
AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHRRRR
aqilah i wana be Good. gooood. says:
im gg nuts
diyanah* i... am... SPEECHLESS says:
aqilahaqilahaqilah
diyanah* i... am... SPEECHLESS says:
I WANNA RIP Y BUTT OFF SEKARANG JUGAK
diyanah* i... am... SPEECHLESS says:
aqilah
diyanah* i... am... SPEECHLESS says:
are u there or have you fainted due to the burden of facing this HORRIBLE HORRIBLE fact that they're ripping us apart next TUESDAY
aqilah says:
uh
aqilah says:
uh
aqilah says:
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diyanah* i... am... SPEECHLESS says:
aqilah says:
i dONT KNWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW
diyanah* i... am... SPEECHLESS says:
CURSE THE SCHOOL FOR TEARING OUR HEARTS APART!!!
i added the "APART!!!"
4:23 AM
i made myself a new blogskin. k i didnt really. but it's my picture! ((:
i just made a horrible discovery-schools lyk, NEXT TUESDAY.
so faaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaast.
it's freakin fast. i felt the past hour just whooosh past like a minute. this is so SCARYY!!!
oh dear. AQILAH. this is bad. i'm wasting time. i'm blogging.
oh no. i'm crapping with chinny. oh no. i'm wasting time.
lol. fine, chinny. i'm wasting time WITH you. which is at least smthing but hey. it's still CRAPPING not sharing-our-future-plans or smthing. (:
then the homework load will pile up.. then i'd get stuck in math. i'd almost sleep in geog & history & science, whether bio, physics/chem. darnnnnn!!!
i seriously dun mind angklung though. if it were in the gym i guess. crash mats, crapping smmore. (: yippeee.
there's angklung omg TOMORROW. i need to buy new shoes. stupid school disallows my ol' nike airs with that blue tiickk. soo.. gotta get money out again. sighh. and there's orientation.
ORIENTATION!
um, didnt i just experience orientation sm time before?!
omg.
12:37 AMHow You Life Your Life 
8:29 PM
most werent spared. except for the mosques that mostly remained standing. some of those people at the mosques survived.
I recall the phenomenon that took place right before the eyes of a survivor who told his story in the documentary. It was totally, um, MIRACULOUS?! He stared at the sea rooted to the spot at the mosque which was TWENTY METRES (ONLY) from the coastline, mind, and saw it approaching, but spectacularly the wave split into two and reseded before it reached the mosque although it continued to destroy all around it. the water which did reach the mosque was only knee-length. The documentary showed the mosque standing, surrounded by flat, remains. wowwee.
oh yeah.and there was that holy man's (he helped build the mosque too..ooo..) house which also stood very near the coastal line with all the other houses that remain standing, almost totally undestroyed by the wraths of the tidal waves. it was just like the other houses, made only out of wood, yet it survived. um, i was totally awed by the idea. it looked really vulnerable to a gigantic mountainous tsunami. all woody-rickety. BUT. it was still i mean, 80% there at least. the other houses were rubble!! o.O
oh well, if you didnt see it you should have, man. it really awed me. the place was really beautiful, but there were wrecks of houses everywhere, speechless, serene, after being hit by the tsunami. and i saw how many enchanting mosques stood beautifully there, amidst the wrecks. (nicer than those in singapore, most of em. haiyo. -.-'')
so many lives were whisped away in a matter of seconds. unexpected.
fated? yeah.
we could die TOMORROW! or the next day or the nextnext day.
but let's say we lived forever. let's plan ahead.
but we would die. who lives forever?? so plan to go to heaven.
plan to be good while living.
it's easy for me to say. but am i doing enough yet? :\
this is all major scary. i'm really, talking to myself, actually. well, yeah. blogging.
4:34 AM
hmm.
i wanna merayap after school to smwhere.
that is, when school starts. not that i'm looknig forward to it at all.
11:43 PM
Only true in fairy tales
Meant for someone else
But not for me
Love was out to get to me
That's the way it seems
Disappointment haunted
All my dreams
And then I saw her face
Now I'm a believer
Not a trace
Of doubt in my mind
I'm in love
I'm a believer
I couldn't leave her
If I tried
I thought love was
More or less a given thing
The more I gave the lessI got, oh yeah
What's the use in trying
All you get is pain
When I wanted sunshine
I got rain
And then I saw her face
Now I'm a believer
Not a trace
Of doubt in my mind
I'm in love
I'm a believer
I couldn't leave her
If I tried
What's the use in trying
All you get is pain
When I wanted sunshine
I got rain
And then I saw her face
Now I'm a believer
Not a trace
Of doubt in my mind
I'm in love
I'm a believer
I couldn't leave her
If I tried
Then I saw her face
Now I'm a believer
Not a trace
Of doubt in my mind
Now I'm a believer
Yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah
I'm a believer
Then I saw her face
I'm a believer
Not a trace
Of doubt in my mind
I'm a believer
5:20 AM
3:58 AM
let's see. i ate an apple turnover for breakfast. and when we got to johor early in the morning we went to eat prata smwhere and PRATA is pretty pastry-ish i think. yeah and THEN.. we went shop shop shopping and we headed to secret recipe to eat and then there was like, a BLACK out? :\ and so i couldnt buy my food. but i didnt wanna eat anyway. oh.. i didnt get to buy my yummy passionfruit spray. (: hehe, aqilah. ok so we went to pelangi and ate there. and i got my gourmet pie and i realised that it was this (PASTRY) pie thinger with creamy soup w sm meaty things inside which looked & smelt really good. but i got really muak & sick of it after eating half and it got all soggy and i realised that i didnt noe how to eat a gourmet pie properly. sigh. so i felt really grossed out by PASTRIES and later on my mom bought loads of bread and some PASTRIES and i felt embarrassed by the truckload she got from season's. (it turned out to be not thaat much.) hm.. enough about pastries.
my aunt and granny came along (with my lil cousin, camilla.) and they were like SO hyped about getting me CLOTHES. -_-'' i felt like smone with a horrible dress sense or smthing. so they had to make me over. k it wasnt that drastic lah. but i tried on loads of dresses yesterday. looked nice. but i didnt get them cos i nvr thot i'd wear them soon. hah. hah. this east india dress looked reeally nice and fit perfectly, but i thought.. like sayang, ynoe. whatever lah. i bought this ruffly black skirt eventually and this white top. ohwell. (dun really like that top thaat much) one day i shall find a nice & pretty black dress. one day... oh. i chose a pair of FEMININE looking jeans so my sister would dress like a GIRL for once. (: yay me. i wanted a pair but i remembered i was SUPPOSED to be on a noshopping-spree. hahahaahh. yeahright. so i didnt get one.
oh yeah. my mom and i bought wacoal bras. :\
SO. oh yeah. i like that sales girl who sold the black skirt to me. i think i disappointed her though. hehe. she made me try on soooo many nice thingers. she said i wld look nice w them on. but i just bought the skirt. too bad so sad.
the ppl there are quite nice. but this young guy freaked me when he smiled and said "hii. bawak adik jalan eh? " smilesmile. :S i think that was how my face looked like.
went to danga bay. solated. ate marrybrown. the water at the bay LOOKS ncie frm far but really stinks. the water is quite dirty and stagnant. had these bubbly frothy yellow thingers in clumps on the surface. watched the sun set and left.
ate at this place smwhere ahead. night fell. ate yummy black pepper crabs. i forced myself to eat three pincers and the middle part of the crabbie with it's bendy legs. quite nice. ooh man. sm people actually eat right next to the fish tanks, watch their fishes get caught and murdered and cooked in whatever way. and eat them in front of it's scaley friends. i feel for them. oh but still ate fish. ohwell. then we headed home.
this morning my gran told me an hour long story stretching frm her grandma all the way until my little cousins. it involved loads of dying, hardship, dying, more dying, war, jealousy, marriage, bad magic, dying, school, standing up for urself, yada yada. she's one funky woman. so is her mom. but i think she knew that i got lost through half of her stories. she smhow knows when she stares at me with those brown grey eyes. piercing through my bored yet amused soul.
fine. i'm letting my sister do all the babysitting while i blog my ass off.
gtg.
7:10 PM
friday was thrilling/fun/scary/hot/cold (literally).
okay anyway, i had that music studio concert thinger for christmas in our new recital hall. played this song that i dont know how to spell even now after memorizing it and playing it over & over a gazillion times. hmph. so i played this nice spanishy song by albeniz. lucky my teacher chose a song that wasnt really popular or anything, unlike sm beethoven thingum. so that if screw up on sm notes, they'd prolly think it was part of the song or smthing. maybe. okay anyway. it was quite fun. ((: i wore this red blouse which i pulled down so it wldnt keep sliding across my shoulders. :S and this ruffly green skirt tht we (A-diy-lah) used to see around orchard. quite xmasie. (: principal said it looked pretty enough. phew. oh but my shoes didnt pass. i had to wear her high heels. so damn high. made me taller than the guys. (except two of them) tsk. pissed me. i wobbled on the stage during the short practice b4 the actual concert. i forced this screwy smile on my screwy face when i almost tripped and i heard the other kids laughing. great. oh and the stupid heels made me taller than this extremely hot guy sitting next to me. -.- whyy oh whyy?? okay ANYWAY, riight.. we had to take stupid pictures with the bohemian piano b4 performing. pretty funny. yeah. oh and i began feeling really nervous when we had that break.
i played third. soo glad it was over so soon. my poor ass went numb throughout the rest of it. oooh. the laaast guy who played. was PRO. ahh. so pro. he wore this black turtleneck. i thought the turtleneck was a bit weird at first. but it did look kinda hot. oh and black's cool. (hehe nadia.) and the thing fit him well. ohwhyamidiscussingthis. ABOUT his PRODED playing-of-piano.. yeah well, what can i say? his hands were practically FLYING okay? and he looked scary. but real cool. cool, proded, scary.
next day we had a performance outside the studio in the atrium. BAD sounds okay? kinda like angklung in clifford centre. couldnt hear my playing. but it wasnt as scary, i think.
i dunno how to explain my feelings on sunday. nothing exciting happened unless u count having pizza. i guess not.
things happen. bad things, good things. good things are easily accepted, appreciated, of course. bad things are feared, but when shit happens, shit happens. (it's all over some of those black shirts they sell. my uncle has one in view of different religions.) shit happens. cant avoid em. and if someone does something bad to you. always think about what Allah/God would do to him/her. punishment isnt up to us to decide on. dont go looking for revenge. forgive if possible. but atleast, keep things cool. this is true isnt it? i'm not sure. it may not be. i'm not sure. but i really think so. but you cant really let life happen, i guess. you gotta have aims & goals and stuff like that. so you know where you're heading. maybe if you're thinking nothin bout the future that's all you gonna get. nothing. (?)
what am i saying?
1:09 AM
What you mean to me
Search your heart - search your soul
And when you find me there you'll search no more
Don't tell me it's not worth tryin' for
You can't tell me it's not worth dyin' for
You know it's true
Everything I do - I do it for you
Look into your heart - you will find
There's nothin' there to hide
Take me as I am - take my life
I would give it all - I would sacrifice
Don't tell me it's not worth fightin' for
I can't help it - there's nothin' I want more
Ya know it's true
Everything I do - I do it for you
There's no love - like your love
And no other - could give more love
There's nowhere - unless you're there
All the time - all the way
Oh - you can't tell me it's not worth tryin' for
I can't help it - there's nothin' I want more
I would fight for you - I'd lie for you
Walk the wire for you - ya I'd die for you
Ya know it's true
Everything I do - I do it for you
i like this song.
7:08 PM
today is my "Big Day". stupid piano concert in that lame recital hall my music school just got. we even have to pay for our own performances. yea, i need a $10 ticket to watch myself. well actually my dad hasn't bothered to pay up yet. i really dont mind standing. i havent really practiced much this week, honestly. i've spent a lot of time stoning around in front of the computer screen.
i wish i weren't living here exactly. i'm not exactly ungrateful. it's just curiosity. It's making me imagine how things would be like out of this place. i want a piece of the world out there. I, for one thing don't want to be stuck here in front of this metal concoction, never seeing, never feeling the rest of it.
it would be healthy. (: i want to travel.
staying here is making me feel er, decomposed?
or like im decomposing?
5:28 PMYour 2005 Song Is 
Boulevard of Broken Dreams by Green Day
"My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating"
In 2005, you bummed everyone out. Like you care.
5:26 AMPepperoni Pizza 
Robust and dominant.
When you go for something, you go full force.
You tend to take control of situations easily.
And in return, you get a ton of respect.Your Blogging Type is Unique and Avant Garde 
You're a bit ... unusual. And so is your blog.
You're impulsive, and you'll often post the first thing that pops in your head.
Completely uncensored, you blog tends to shock... even though that's not your intent.
You tend to change your blog often, experimenting with new designs and content.
10:16 PMYou Are Cream Pie 
10:15 PMYour Seduction Style: Au Natural 
You're the type of person who happily plays around and creates a unique little world.Little do you know that your personal paradise is so appealing that it sucks people in.You find joy in everything - so is it any surprise that people find joy in you?
You bring back the inner child in everyone you meet with your sincere and spontaneous ways.Your childlike (but not childish) behavior also inspires others to care for you.As a result, those who you befriend and date tend to be incredibly loyal to you.Snickers 
Your Eyes Should Be Brown 
Your eyes reflect: Depth and wisdom
What's hidden behind your eyes: A tender heart
10:01 PM
6:43 PM
7:46 PM
so then we performed in that weird place which we found to be an awwful place to PERFORM angklung. bad sounds, falling stands and files. and we stood there smiling at the audience a whole lot waiiting for the kuls to arrive. gosh. the crowd was just standing there giving us stares and all. so we played a sucky white xmas. (it sucked.) without the kulintangs. ohwell.
audience didnt leave anyway. it was really tiring playing afterthat nonstop in high heels and carrying three/two heavy angklungs (i like low pitched angklungs anyway. my fault.) ooh but kuda hitam (black horse) rocked. javanese classic. :\ what kak faridah said. she said we cld hv gotten gold w honest. (that rocked totally cos she always says things like, "tsk, bad, bronze/alluminium foil/ tissue paper award". yeaaahhhman!!!
so then we had a breaak. we drank mineral water. -____-""
then we performed AGAIN. sighh. but the audience was greeat. so enthusiastic. there was this women in orange with an orange face who was staring with her mouth open at kak faridah's rear. or her playing. i think her playing. but kak faridah kept playing xtra new stuff. :S well.. it's gd she's trying to improvise but ohwell.. it's a bit weird smtimes. but anyway it was fun watching people and i was trying to smile widely but i had a feeling i looked retarded so i stopped. heh. our muscles were aching after xmas medley. and our right thumbs successfully looked more blistery. but the audience raaawked man! this dude in brown was like clapping like mad and later he saw the sign the security guard put up & realised we were frm rgs and he said, " rgs huh? you ppl are future leaders" i caught debbie looking constipated. hehehehee. hey we're just bamboo girls. but yeah we really performed the best we could. i suppose.
we got back and ate delifrance pastries on the way ( i got apple smthing. was it smthing with a -ffle behind? it was nice anyway.)
we had to clean up in school. we carried extrremely heavy bags back and forth. yeah, while sm others were playing ball in the gym. ?!@# grr. so we were reallly pooped & exhausted. but we still had an hour plus ride to take. wahhh... zaf and i were comlpaining to each other. nobody would give up seats to us. duh. xD so mean.. took bus 17 and MISSED our stop. (i saw amelina & fatin. ex-whitesanders. they smiled and waved. (: nice ppl. ) so zaf and i had to walk an extra kazillion miles home..ok that's exaggerated but we felt it cos we were so damn bloody pooped. oh and we met an adorable boy. i wanted to squish him but his older bro was there. darrn it.
and that's the end of my long story part I. part II involves the bbq. but i have sm little kiddies to tend to right now. (haidah & luqman.) ohwell.
6:16 PM
yesterday i went over to my granny's and ate loads and watched die another day.. boredboredbored. oh and at home i mostly admired zen neeon on the com. oh and madrasah exams were surprisingly easypeasy.
the day before was when i had piano class and went to swensens' to eat. yummay.
the day before the day before i mostly stared at zen neeon on the com.
and the day before...
oh and my tooth's done. no more seeing mr dentist.
basically the norm. ate swensens' twice this week i think. gosh.
today... mum wants me to organise my stuff. bleaahh..
oww. my stomach.
i'm going to the library.. cant wait for zen neeon to come..
so what's new...
6:02 PM
Harry PotterYou crave your own knight in shining armour: the
guy who will swoop in and save you, and manage
to be a sweet lover and good dad all at the
same time. You are the girl he's fighting for!
Who is your Harry Potter love match? (for girls)
10:56 PM
Fred or George WeasleyThe practical joke was invented for people like
you. You love to be surprised, and revel with
a guy who has a wicked sense of humour, is
always optimistic, and has the same merry
disregard for rules as you.
Who is your Harry Potter love match? (for girls)
10:52 PM
anwyay.. i've read TWO books with booby narrators. TWO narrators complaining about their heavy tops. heyy. at least there's something there. unappreciative people.
i wanna go shopping. but with who man.. oh man.
i'm sooo scared of the auditions later. for this stupid christmas show for my stupid piano studio. grrr. stupid dupid. i dun mind watching. (ok i DO. pay $10 bucks to listen and listen..i'll pass) it's scary to playyy!!! dunlike lah. i'm not a MEPer. i caaant! but i cant run away or anything so.. i've been practicing to pulp (sorry, all you neighbours!! i cant help it so dun complain to me about being sick of the old song i've been playing all dayy. )
humph. i still feel like a useless lump. there's 6a gathering at pasir ris beach next week. too bad ahmad cant go. rug camp. tough. angklung camp ended aages ago. lazy to go yet excited. xD
10:28 PM
11:56 PM
been reading so much. and i'm starting to think like the narrator of the book i'm reading, surrender. at first it looked so cheem & boringly. but it's nice. it makes me feel guilty though. it also makes me pity the characters. cos every book i read.. seems to narrate the miserable pathetic tragically twisted lives of the main character. awman. but i like them, even though they make me feel all twisted & screwy after reading them. like how finnigan can just set fires all over Mulyan/Muylanwhatever. and i feel sick after reading about how gabriel/anwell pours blood out of his mouth when he coughs badly. ew. but ooh. nice. mummy seems quite pissy today. she's been mad at my sister & i (well mainly my sister) all day & she's been doing all the housework and ohwellishouldreallybehelping. but i washed the dishes and cleared the honeystars-scattered living room floor and i played a lot of games including sims 2. ohwellohwell.
& my blog keeps leading me to odd places. i had to actually log into blogger to view it. ohwell..
11:41 PM