That's all there is. (:
friday was thrilling/fun/scary/hot/cold (literally).
okay anyway, i had that music studio concert thinger for christmas in our new recital hall. played this song that i dont know how to spell even now after memorizing it and playing it over & over a gazillion times. hmph. so i played this nice spanishy song by albeniz. lucky my teacher chose a song that wasnt really popular or anything, unlike sm beethoven thingum. so that if screw up on sm notes, they'd prolly think it was part of the song or smthing. maybe. okay anyway. it was quite fun. ((: i wore this red blouse which i pulled down so it wldnt keep sliding across my shoulders. :S and this ruffly green skirt tht we (A-diy-lah) used to see around orchard. quite xmasie. (: principal said it looked pretty enough. phew. oh but my shoes didnt pass. i had to wear her high heels. so damn high. made me taller than the guys. (except two of them) tsk. pissed me. i wobbled on the stage during the short practice b4 the actual concert. i forced this screwy smile on my screwy face when i almost tripped and i heard the other kids laughing. great. oh and the stupid heels made me taller than this extremely hot guy sitting next to me. -.- whyy oh whyy?? okay ANYWAY, riight.. we had to take stupid pictures with the bohemian piano b4 performing. pretty funny. yeah. oh and i began feeling really nervous when we had that break.
i played third. soo glad it was over so soon. my poor ass went numb throughout the rest of it. oooh. the laaast guy who played. was PRO. ahh. so pro. he wore this black turtleneck. i thought the turtleneck was a bit weird at first. but it did look kinda hot. oh and black's cool. (hehe nadia.) and the thing fit him well. ohwhyamidiscussingthis. ABOUT his PRODED playing-of-piano.. yeah well, what can i say? his hands were practically FLYING okay? and he looked scary. but real cool. cool, proded, scary.
next day we had a performance outside the studio in the atrium. BAD sounds okay? kinda like angklung in clifford centre. couldnt hear my playing. but it wasnt as scary, i think.
i dunno how to explain my feelings on sunday. nothing exciting happened unless u count having pizza. i guess not.
things happen. bad things, good things. good things are easily accepted, appreciated, of course. bad things are feared, but when shit happens, shit happens. (it's all over some of those black shirts they sell. my uncle has one in view of different religions.) shit happens. cant avoid em. and if someone does something bad to you. always think about what Allah/God would do to him/her. punishment isnt up to us to decide on. dont go looking for revenge. forgive if possible. but atleast, keep things cool. this is true isnt it? i'm not sure. it may not be. i'm not sure. but i really think so. but you cant really let life happen, i guess. you gotta have aims & goals and stuff like that. so you know where you're heading. maybe if you're thinking nothin bout the future that's all you gonna get. nothing. (?)
what am i saying?
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